Wow! Today started
out with all kinds of struggles for me. I
felt isolated. I felt alone. I felt that I was in the wrong place. I felt unsure of a lot of things. I felt like I didn’t have any answers to
anything. Some of those struggles are
still with me (please keep me in your prayers), but several of those struggles
were quickly removed from my mind after today.
With all these feelings going through my mind, there’s
nothing better than a conversation with my momma. So I called her before we left for the
day. She never ceases to amaze me. She always knows the right words to say when I’m
feeling down. Funny how that works!
(Love You Mom!)
Today we went to an orphanage called ‘Tree of Life’ that
is about 15 minutes from our house. They
currently have 13 children and two motherly figures. As soon as we got out of the car one little
boy held his hands up for me to hold him.
Honestly from my past experiences in Haiti, this didn’t surprise
me. I instantly feel in love with this
little boy. I knew he was going to be ‘mine.’ And sure enough he stuck with me the whole
day.
After spending some time with the precious children I saw
how malnourished they are and how much they just yearn to have someone to hold
them. It breaks my heart every time I think
about it.
My little boy, Roosvelt (oos-velt), was one of the more
severe malnourished children. He was
very quiet. He didn’t smile very
much. He really worried me. After lunch time and he had his belly full,
he came and found me and raised his little arms up for me to pick him up. His demeanor changed. He was happier and seemed to enjoy the other
children more.
Seeing this made my heart break over and over again. I was showing this little boy love and
attention, but that wasn’t enough. He was
hungry. His belly was aching for
nutrition. This just reminds me that no
matter the circumstances, if someone doesn’t have their basic needs met, then
they aren’t going to care about much of anything else.
While the children were playing before lunchtime I couldn’t
help but think how hungry I was. How thirsty
I was and would do just about anything for some cold water. But then it hit me. These children go through that on a daily
basis. They only get 2 meals a day, one
around 7 or 8 in the morning and one around 12 or 1 in the afternoon, and that’s
it. Their bellies are always craving
something more. This is a recurring
theme, but …
That broke my heart even more.
How can I be so caught up in me me me when I’ve never
once questioned where my next meal would come from or if it would feel me up? Or if the water I’m drinking was going to
hurt me.
Another thing that hit me straight in the face was the
two women who run the orphanage. Neither
one of them technically ‘run’ the orphanage, that lady has disappeared, but
these women have stuck around because they care for these kids so much. They don’t eat unless there’s enough for the
kids first. They sacrifice so much for
these kids. There are no finances coming
in, so they use their own money to help raise these children. They are very strong women. I am a better person for knowing them. And I’m anxious to see where our relationship
goes throughout this summer.
I know this was a long blog post, but I had a powerful
day and had to share some of the biggest things. I ask that you all continue to lift me up in
prayer and keep sending me encouragement (comments, facebook messenger, email: samantha.gross1213@gmail.com)
as I’m still having some hard times. It’s
hard being here with no family, long term friends, or anyone who completely ‘gets’
me like so many from back home do, so the communication from back home
helps! I love you all!!
SMG
Samantha, this report is an answer to my prayers. My heart hurt for you yesterday, but I believed then - and now - that you are where you need to be: firmly in God's care. Sometimes He has to put us in painful situations to draw us closer to Him. Hard to take - but so worth it, because He always shows Himself faithful, loving and kind. Bless you today.
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I believe I am where I need to be as well. It's just been alot harder than I expected and I'm not even over the first week yet.
DeleteI love you! You're pretty awesome and always such an amazing encourager.
Mantha,
ReplyDeleteI know God is hearing your prayers!!! I am so glad that you had the experiences that you had yesterday!! I pray that it only continues to be more encouraging to you!!! I am so proud of you and what you are doing for their community!! I we all know that they appreciate it more than any of us can ever imagine!!! Thank you for listening to God and going where He sends you!!! You are Blessed beyond Measure!!! I Love You!!! Praying for you!!!
Kacie ma'am, you are such a blessing to my life! This experience is proving to way more challenging than I ever imagined. I'm growing from it though and hopefully I'll come out of this summer learning alot too. I love you and miss you and I'm so excited you'll be waaaay closer to me next year, so we can have more of a relationship! haha ... love you girly! thanks for the encouragement
DeleteGod is with you and He completely ‘gets’ you :-)
ReplyDeleteRest in Him take a deep breath of Him and enjoy this season of life you are blessed to be walking in :-)
Praying for you to be filled with so much of Him so that the lonliness of this place and the lack of people you know is a distant memory!!
PS very jealous of the beautiful ocean views but more jealous of all the hugs your getting! <3
So I'm not sure who this is, but thank you for the encouragement! It means more than you probably know. And it helps way more than you know!
DeleteKeep me in your thoughts and prayers as I continue this life changing and growing adventure.